New York Times Motherlode Blog

My column "Fertiity Diary" appears in The New York Times Motherlode Section, chronicling our journey to have children.
 

Baby Envy

I'm not happy for my pregnant friends -- and I'm not proud of those feelings either.
New York Times, 07 August 2013 | Read Article

Am I Old?

People assume that because I'm late to the child game, that I've lived some sort of glamorous, selfish life.
New York Times, 13 August 2013 | Read Article

Maternal Instincts

Childless, or Child-free, the choice is a difficult one to make.
New York Times, 20 August 2013 | Read Article

Hope Springs Eternal

Free Danishes and low-hormones make the difference at this mini-IVF clinic.
New York Times, 29 August 2013 | Read Article

The Doctor Will Get You Now

I know the point is to have a baby, but I can't help but want rapport with my doctor too.
New York Times, 03 September 2013 | Read Article

Me, The Human Pincushion

My stomach looks like it was hit for target practice in my first round of IVF.
New York Times, 10 September 2013 | Read Article

Give IVF a Chance

Some women think IVF is overhyped and oversold. But I say to them, don't dash our hopes.
New York Times, 17 September 2013 | Read Article

Six Follicles of Anticipation

I went to mini-IVF to get the best eggs. But now I want them all.
New York Times, 24 September 2013 | Read Article

Take My Eggs, Please!

Will the retrieval process be as bad as I fear?
New York Times, 01 October 2013 | Read Article

The Long, Two-Week Wait

How can I wait knowing there's an embryo inside of me?
New York Times, 07 October 2013 | Read Article

It's a Numbers Game

As the nurses obssessively monitor my HcG, I wonder, what's the point?
New York Times, 15 October 2013 | Read Article

Mourning a Miscarriage

It's over.
New York Times, 22 October 2013 | Read Article

Why Don't I "Just" Adopt?

Adoption is beautiful and helps many families. But it's not easy.
New York Times, 29 October 2013 | Read Article

Keeping Marriage Strong

With its emotional ups and downs IVFs can take a toll on a marriage.
New York Times, 05 November 2013 | Read Article

The Wisdom of Solomon

My husband tells his side of the story in a Q&A with me.
New York Times, 12 November 2013 | Read Article

AMA seeks BFP: Inside the World of Fertility Acronyms

There's a sisterhood of support -- and many sad stories -- on the fertility forums.
New York Times, 19 November 2013 | Read Article

The Bittersweet Break

You gotta take em when they come, those IVF breaks.
New York Times, 26 November 2013

It's Not About the Money...or is it?

How much money would you pay to have a baby? The answer should be "everything."
New York Times, 02 December 2013 | Read Article

My IVF Education: How Much Info is TMI?

Sometimes I wonder if I should second-guess my doctor with reams of research. Would it help?
New York Times, 10 December 2013 | Read Article

No Doubt: There's no room for it with IVF.

When you're trying so hard to have a baby, you can't stop and ruminate.
New York Times, 17 December 2013 | Read Article

Mother Nature, Meet Father Time:

'Tis the Season to start thinking about approaching deadlines.
New York Times, 24 December 2013 | Read Article

Momitude: Welcoming in Motherhood

Beyond Western medicine is the holistic side of the fertility journey.
New York Times, 31 December 2013 | Read Article

Shalom IVF: Taking my Quest Abroad

The last IVF failed, and we have to go to Plan B.
New York Times, 07 January 2014 | Read Article

Debating Donor Eggs

Would a baby from another woman's eggs feel like my own -- and would it be Jewish?
New York Times, 14 January 2014 | Read Article

Searching for Genetic Screening

I finally find what I'm looking for at Shaare Zedek hospital.
New York Times, 20 January 2014 | Read Article

Addicted to IVF or Addicted to Hope?

How many is too many IVF? Who should we be upset about?
New York Times, 28 January 2014 | Read Article

Help from an Unexpected Stranger

So many things have gone wrong on this journey, once in a while the universe throws you a bone.
New York Times, 04 February 2014 | Read Article

A Place Where No One Asks "Why Have Kids?"

It's a relief to be in a country where everyone has children.
New York Times, 12 March 2014 | Read Article

She's Come Undone

It's not easy being on ten times the medication -- with dubious results.
New York Times, 21 April 2014 | Read Article

‘You’ve Done Everything You Can’

One phone call changed everything. And not for the better.
New York Times, 17 June 2014 | Read Article

After I.V.F.: Pregnant, but Still Stuck in the Past

I have PTSD from past miscarriages.
New York Times, 17 March 2015 | Read Aritcle

A Fertility Diary’s Happy Ending: Was It All Worth It?

It's been a long, treacherous journey, and it was all forgotten in one magic moment. Or was it?
New York Times, 25 August 2015 | Read Aritcle